Why am I so lazy?!

Well, the title says it all. WHY am I SO lazy?!?! Seriously! Why can't I get off my large butt (which is getting larger by the moment) and get some freaking exercise? I have zero motivation, ZERO! I'm getting increasingly fed up with myself.

After being up ALL night with two sick kids Thursday night, I managed to clean the whole house on Friday. I swept and scrubbed the floors, I cleaned the bathroom, washed/sanitized all our bedding, re-made beds, tidied up, folded and put away laundry, wiped down the kitchen and did dishes. All this while taking care of our three children and having some cuddle and playtime with them.

The week before I did my fall cleaning. In one day I rearranged and gutted out the girls bedroom, washed the walls in Jakes room and the bathroom, washed down all the appliances and cupboards/vanities. I sorted through closets and scrubbed down the bathtub, washed heaters, cleaned windows (the whole window, not just the glass) scrubbed floors, washed doors, washed more walls, rearranged our kitchen and dusted. I decluttered problem areas and found things to donate as well as the day to day chores. All that in one day!!

I can manage to make, from scratch, all my families baked goods, even down to granola and granola bars! My husband always has a nice hot lunch, from leftovers I have made. Also my children always have healthy snacks available from fruits and veggies I keep cut up in perfect snack sizes.

I say this all this not to toot my own horn, but because it baffles me! It baffles me how I can put so much effort and energy into running my home, and caring for my family, but I cannot manage to get off my lazy butt and go for a walk. Seriously. I WANT to lose weight, I WANT to be healthy. So where is all that energy and motivation when I need it?

Now this might come as a surprise to some of you, and it's no secret to others, but my house use to be a MESS. A total disaster. A little over a year a go I did not have my stuff together. My floors got swept a couple times a week, my bathroom got cleaned like once every couple months, my floors mopped about every month and so on. It's so embarrassing to even think about that now. I felt very overwhelmed by it all. I knew where I wanted to be, what I wanted my house to look like, but I had no clue how to get there.

That is sort of how I feel about this whole weight issue. HOW do I get to where I want to be? I see in my mind a vision of who I want to be. What I want to look like. Let me just say that I have had three children, so I'm not expecting perfection here! I just want to be a healthy weight and have a more slender and toned body. I want to feel confidant and pretty when I get dressed to go somewhere. I want to enjoy shopping again! I want to have energy. I want to have style. Heck I want to feel my age, not twice my age.

So what's the whole point of this post? To try and motivate myself! For the first few months after I decided to work on my house keeping skills I stayed on track by writing what I did each day on my fb status to stay accountable. If I'm having days where I don't feel like doing much I go back to that. It keeps me motivated. The other thing that keeps me going is remembering WHY I decided to work hard to keep my home clean. That was/is because my family deserves a clean and safe environment to live in. My family is after all, the most important thing in my life, second only to God.

I'm hoping to give myself the push I need by applying the same principals to losing weight and getting healthy. If it worked once, I'm counting on it working again! I need to hold myself accountable, and I need to remember this is as much for my family as it is for myself. My children and my husband deserve to have a healthy and active mommy/ wife. More then that, they deserve a happy me. Plus I want to model a healthy body image for my children, especially my girls!

If I can manage to become a good house keeper and improve my house from it's former state, I should be able to transform my health and body the same way. I need to clean out the inside, decluttering my diet and pantry of junk as I go. I need to do the daily up keep required to maintain a clean and healthy diet and invest the time in exercise to work on getting to where I want to be. I CAN do this. More then that I NEED to do this. After all, I have three young children whose eating habits and activity levels I'm moulding. This is for my health, and for theirs!